On Losing Myself

In memories I have since dismissed
and kisses I can no longer taste
I loved you
With my deepest and damnedest
With so much force
It broke us into several pieces
It came shattering down
In a dramatic show
The sound of it echoing off
The world I had known
Reverberating back:
'I told you so'

It became a source of pain
To dwell on the remains
I lived in funeral black and endless gray
Hanging on the edge of that cliff
Built by weighty words you would say
They kept me clung
But, too, they kept me from ever reaching you
I stopped showing up in mirrors
For fear of my reflection

Bloody and beaten hands gripped that cliff tight
Then one night, they began to climb
Near the top, there was muted sunshine
hiding behind a cloud
After a night so long,
I questioned whether dawn still existed
My body quivered, but my heart persisted
Upon the mount, the sun broke
And my shadow stood
I gasped because I forgot it could
But here it was:
Blatant proof of my existence